A bubble of hate

A Bubble of hate

I have recently felt as though I am surrounded by suffocating hate that seems to have consumed the world. I have even stopped to question if the Armageddon was upon us and if hell had come to swallow the earth. Have I just been blind and now I saw see the world for what it really is? Are people truly this hateful and malicious?   I find myself scared to walk out my door for fear of getting shot by a random stranger for no reason. How do people go on living in a world where there is such distrust and pain? It is as if the beauty of life has been sucked from the world. We are surrounded by insecurity  and sadness.  Now I have never been one to believe that everyone should love each other. I believe that is just unrealistic. Is everyone equal? I think we are all born equal, but the choices that we make later in life decides are importance. Now that may offend some, but can you honestly say someone that peddles drugs to small children and someone who spends their time raising money to find a cure for cancer are on the same equal plane? I think not...

The main thing I want to touch on is the transgender bathroom. I have witnessed some of the most disgusting comments when it comes to this topic and has made me embarrassed to be apart of the human race. Example from a man I saw commenting on fb " If I see one of those freaks in my bathroom I will straight up piss on them". Let that sink in for a moment.... Now if you are with me you will think WTF! Now others are saying that they are all pedophiles and rapists? hmmmm how does that make sense? First off ladies you have stalls to go in for privacy and I also have a scary reality check for you.... Non transgenders are pedophiles and rapists too!!! GASP the horror! So here is the reality people those of you have a very strong opinion against sharing a bathroom with someone who identifies with the opposite sex makes you a homophobic individual.

I guess my point of the day today is that the world is full of enough horrible things, for example, the shootings. So why are we separating ourselves over such a small thing in the grand scheme of everything else that is happening? I am all about being apart of the solution and not the problem. So I know for my part I am not going to put people down for something I don't understand. I am going to bring kindness everywhere I can. I am not peoples judge, jury or prosecutioner. I am not perfect and I don't expect others to be either.

A short bit on Friendship

                Good morning Bloggers!

                The last post I did on friendship really came from the heart because I truly believe friendship to be very important.  I have been blessed with a friend that keeps me from drowning and always cheers me on. She also gives me a big steaming cup of reality when I need it. We have a track record of coming together and then drifting apart. It doesn’t matter how far we drift we always sync back up.

                There is a lot of things I have learned from being blessed with such an amazing friend. The first thing is that friendship takes time and self. That means when a friend texts me I need to make it a priority to respond. Or if someone calls me I need to make it a point to either answer or call them back. This is probably the thing I struggle with the most. It is not that I don’t want to talk to someone it is I look at it and decide to respond later and then end up forgetting. I don’t make it a priority. That is how I end up losing a friend.

                Another thing that I have been taught is that it is not always about me. I need to put my selfish hat away and listen. Friendships are give and take. Sometimes you need to get your shoulder wet and sometimes you need to ask for one. Sometimes people we care about go through something really difficult that can make you uncomfortable because you can’t relate and don’t know what to say.

                When I terminated my rights to my son I was nineteen. Most of my friends were nineteen. Most people that age cannot relate to that. I didn’t have many people to talk to because nobody knew what to say. I was a mess and didn’t want to go on. There was one person who did exactly what a friend should do in that situation. They said nothing….. They held me and let me fall to pieces for as long as I needed with no judgement and didn’t try to say the things that made it worse (“At least you know where he is” or “at least you can still see him”). When I was ready to stop breaking they asked what he could do to help. Sometimes silence is the best way to help somebody.

                This may seem like a short post but I think the message is pretty clear and doesn’t need to be dissected any more. Don’t be selfish if you care about your friendships. Learn to give and take. And one big thing that I need to work on…. Answer my damn phone.

A new Valentine's Day plan to ponder....

Since Valentine’s Day is fast approaching and most are either excited to spend a day being in love or dreading the idea of spending the day alone drowning their single sorrows in a bottle of wine or a pint of Ben and Jerry’s or hell probably both.

 I have lived in both worlds of the Valentine’s Day drama. I have also fell into that unrealistic expectations of the day (flowers, chocolates, teddy bears, balloons, candles, dinner, Jewelry…). All of that “show me you love me stuff”. Yes of course that stuff is fine and dandy and what woman or man would not like to feel appreciated for a day? We are programmed to believe that this day should be a defining day for your relationship (movies, ads, radio, books, commercials, TV shows).

I will admit that I still do flirt with that fantasy of being treated like a princess for the day. But I do not base my relationship on one day. 53% of women say they would leave their significant other if they didn’t get anything on that day. It floors me on how important it can be to some and how much pressure is put into it. No wonder there are so many scorned men that hate this day. They have been set up for failure. Don’t get me wrong I completely agree that you should celebrate being in love for the day. But must it be so material? I am not saying that people should completely shun the idea of buying something for your significant other because there is nothing wrong with buying someone you love a present.

This day should be icing on the cake not the whole bakery. Remember that your significant other is not a mind reader and setting them up to do so would be you setting them up for failure. If it is that important to you talk about it with them. Tell them things you want (not dropping hints). Sure you may think this takes away from the surprise of the day. In that case give them a few different ideas and let them choose. Then ask them what they would like because remember a relationship involves 2 people! Everyone is happy…  Communication is key people!

Now let’s touch on the singles. I am no stranger to being single on this day. I have spent plenty of time whining about the woes of being alone. It really isn’t the greatest on this day. It can be very depressing….. If you let it. If you really want to spend the day in your sweats feeling sorry for yourself then by all means please do it. No judgment here. I have partaken in this sad ritual on numerous occasions. It is a choice though.

If you are looking to get out of that hole I have a few recommendations. First off wake up and make yourself a nice breakfast. Take a nice shower. Get yourself done up a little more than usual and venture out for the day. Have a shopping day or go to your favorite book store. Or really anything that makes that strikes your fancy. Now as you are doing this you may witness a couple here or there try to not do the cliché rolling your eyes and thinking of how gross it is. Instead be happy for them. Who are you to dam anyone else’s relationship? You would be drinking a poison that is only damaging you. Your ill will has no effect on them. You are choosing to make yourself miserable. Love is a beautiful thing and it will happen for you if you let it.  End your valentines with a good dinner and remind yourself that being single is the perfect time to be happy with you and being able to do whatever the heck you want to.

So in conclusion whether you are single or alone don’t over think it and don’t invest your whole wellbeing or your relationship on one day. Valentine’s will come and go and it is your choice on how you choose to handle it.

Do you want a wedding or marriage?

Over the last few years I have noticed that a lot of my friends are getting engaged. Most I have been overwhelmingly happy for. It is something that should be celebrated! Love is in the air. I love weddings and I love watching two people in love join in such a serious commitment. The ones I have been truly excited for are the ones who of course are excited about being a princess for a day but they truly glow when they talk about being able to spend the rest of their lives with the person that they love. The wedding is the second perk for them.

Then there are those that the only thing they really are focused on is the wedding. What their dress looks like… what kind of cake they will be eating… what the bridesmaids are wearing… All of those things we dream of as little girls. That is all very exciting stuff and I love hearing all of the details. It’s all very exciting. But one thing that I can’t help but notice is them not talking about the most important part of all of this. The marriage…. They seem completely oblivious to what happens after the wedding. They are in this dream like state of being in a white gown and the whole room staring at the beauty of them.. I don’t blame them for that because let’s be honest what woman doesn’t want that?

Out of all of this blissful happiness I have notice there is a difference between these women. Some truly want to be married and live in the reality of what that means. Then there are those that want a wedding and don’t seem to be aware that they are making one of the biggest commitments of their life. All they see is flowers and glitter. Not forever and always. One thing that made me notice this was I almost did it myself. I was actually in a very sick relationship but I wanted a wedding. I didn’t think about all of the responsibility that comes with it. Thank God I woke up before I actually went through with it. I am not saying that women that are really excited about their princess wedding don’t understand that they are getting married also I have just noticed that some have forgot that they are also getting married.

My point is if you are wanting to get married to someone. Make sure you want to actually be married and not just want a wedding.