As an aspiring writer
(I say aspiring because I don’t believe I am one until I can actually have it
as my full-time job) I found the most difficult thing to come to terms with is
the lack of instant gratification. I have realized I can write something that I
am truly proud of and think the whole world should love only to realize that a
lot of people may just skip right past. It can be very defeating. Then I go
through all the motions of “who is crazy enough to actually put themselves
through all of this?”. Then I am tempted to give up and move on to something
that wasn’t such a bruise to my ego.
Then I explore other options and every time I try to move on from my
break up with writing I get roped back in with that temptation of creating
something truly amazing and it starts all over.
This time I am
choosing to accept that I am a writing junkie and there is no point in trying
to fight it. Hi my name is Ariana and I am a writeaholic.. I am going to hate
it and love it all at the same time. There is going to be a lot of ups and
downs and I can choose to power through and go through the emotions or I can
keep going to that toddler state of mind and throw a tantrum and give up. Yes I
am 25 and I am guilty of being an over emotional drama queen…
Now today I am
obviously having a good day with a lot of motivation. I can’t say that I will
feel the same tomorrow but at least I have this feeling today so I can possibly
come up with some pretty great pieces or at the very least ideas. Or maybe I
will write some pretty crappy stuff and I will get to learn from them.
Wow I love having
positive days!
